This has been the best and worst year of my life. I have felt tidal waves of grief as well as tidal waves of love. I have descended into the deepest valleys of sadness that I thought I’d never crawl out of and then ascended the tallest mountains of joy. I wandered aimlessly and pushed forward into an unknown future. A part of me died and a part of me was born.
I have lived 365 lives this year; each morning I woke a different person. Some of them I remember, some of them I don’t. Some of them I wish I could remember, others I wish I could forget.
Oscar Dov Beckman was born at 7:31pm on October 7, 2016. Today he is one year old. Today is a day we weren’t sure we would see. But, we’re here and we’re doing the best we can. Tomorrow is a new day; a new opportunity to be the best versions of ourselves. Thank you for teaching me that, Oscar. Mama loves you.